My quilting mojo is still very much absent from my life, even nearly four years after the death of my son. Jeffrey loved my quilts and would want me to keep designing them. I’m not sure why the thought of making a quilt overwhelms me just thinking about it. It now takes me a year to make a quilt, whereas I used to whip out one a month.

Bedazzled is a quilt I designed in Electric Quilt after he passed. I even purchased the necessary ruler to make the quilt, and convinced myself that someone with my terrible math skills could tackle this one. I did manage to draw it, and if I did that, surely I can sew it!

This quilt has been on my mind lately, and half of me would like to create it, the other half is telling me I’m not ready for such a quilt, the challenge will depress me instead of filling me with joy, and to stick with very basic quilts until I move past this phase. Perhaps I will make this one my 2021 resolution.

My creative side is satisfied with baking these days, but I’m gaining weight at a rapid pace, it’s got to stop!

I’ve been playing around with garlic cheese bread. Loads of butter and cheese, on top of the always fattening dough, is wreaking havoc on my hips and thighs!

I’m stilling tweaking the dough on this one (texture and bake wise) but Jim and I are in love with the flavors. We ate the entire thing with our dinner last night, wiping out any positive effects from the six and a half mile walk I took yesterday, which is twice my normal amount.

When I am happy with the dough portion of the recipe, I will share it.

I’m not sure my body is up to another long walk today, but I will get a short one in at least!

CJ Tinkle

This Post Has 12 Comments

  1. treadlemusic

    Baking/cooking seems to be my all-satisfying activity, too, and am pushing myself to stay at the machine rather than the stove!!!! I share your “pain”!!!!! Hugs………………

    1. tinksquared

      Thanks Doreen! May I borrow some of your willpower? 🙂

  2. Kathy Alden

    After my husband died 5 years ago I couldn’t sew for quite awhile. I always found peace in my sewing. At first I would just go to my room and sit, sometimes for hours. Then one day I picked up a UFO and decided to start there. I didn’t have to think, cut, etc, just sew! I took it slow and my mojo came back. Ever since I take my time and no longer race to get something done. I enjoy the entire process and feel the peace around me. You will find it again or not. In the mean time enjoy the cooking. Much like sewing, it’s a process!

    1. tinksquared

      Yes it is, and like you, I will eventually enjoy quilting again, at a more relaxed pace. I occasionally get in the mood to quilt, but find myself losing interest mid way. This too shall pass! Merry Christmas!

  3. Diane Obernesser

    CJ, You are more than capable of making this beautiful quilt (math skills or not). When you’re ready you will do it beautifully. I lost my husband 1 1/2 years ago & don’t get much sewing done, but when I do it takes me out of my great sense of loss. I just love the design. Good luck & Merry Christmas.

    1. tinksquared

      Thank you so much Diane, and I am so sorry about your husband. It’s hard this time of year to be without them, my heart goes out to you. Merry Christmas!

  4. Belvadere

    Creativeness is like the wind. It comes in different speeds, and is not always a constant. So, you’re not quilting. ENJOY the moment of baking. That quilt looks like a rushing windy time. Maybe you are basking in a balmy kind of day. Blessings.

    1. tinksquared

      That is true, and so eloquently worded. I am enjoying baking. It is enough. I just wish it didn’t make me fat. Quilting doesn’t. LOL

  5. Janine

    Each of my 2 sisters has lost their only sons, both at young ages. The most recent was a year ago. That’s not nearly enough time to “heal” from such a loss. I believe you carry the ache the remainder of your life. As to the quilting, maybe you will one day rekindle the interest, but maybe you will branch off into another field of sewing. Give yourself the grace to take whatever time is needed to move forward.

    1. tinksquared

      Thank you Janine. I appreciate your words. That’s a terrible tragedy for your family. Blessings to you, and them.

  6. Denise Fischer

    2019 was a terrible year for me medically and into 2020. Then we had stay at home orders beginning in March and I just could not sew. Finally I set a 10 minute limit. “you have to go into your sewing room and work 10 minutes” At first this involved clearing off the machine. Then finally sitting down to sew. At first I could not wait for the 10 minutes to be up. That lasted a few days and eventually I was sewing longer and now I am enjoying it again. Maybe try something like that?

    1. tinksquared

      I’m sorry to hear that Denise. I am happy to hear that you are enjoying it again! I did some seeing this morning and enjoyed it.

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